chinese new year

Seriously, I'm really enjoy my chinese new year !

It's simple but FUN ~

Thank you bro for bringing me out !

I met him a few times during these CNY.

Once the moment I look at him, it recall back all the happy memories with him.

I can't denied that I still have the feeling towards him.

I thought I able to ignore him when he is in front of me,

I realize I can't stop looking at him.

Last time we only spent a very short time, but the memories were all so lovely and unforgettable.

It's really suffer these few days.

keep breaking down..

I do not understand myself.

I do not know what I'm thinking or even what I want..

please tell me what should I do?

I really signs of growing tensions between the two people..

I'm crying silently without anyone knowing.

Why I always falling in love to the wrong person and the wrong moment?

Why loving a person it is so suffer?

I'm losing the confidence and the hope of love, when can I really have a lovely relationship?

Why always i'm the person who tolerate and do everything ?

I'm scare to go forward because i'm a terrible coward.

PROBLEMATIC !

Lifeless

I'm Tired !

Not physiacally tired, but mentally...

I felt exhausted, I would just feel like lying on the bed after work..

Especially these few days, my office showrooms having events, it made me more and more tired..

Maybe because of tired, I'm easily get angry and moody.

I did not know why, no one to share, no one to talk and sometime I will fed up to talk with my family.. The more we talked the more we argue..

Chinese new year just now around the corner..

I guess will be another boring day...

Just trying to be happy, act as happy as I can..

I was hoping for a peaceful and simple life, that's all..

No more tears for friend or relationship...

No one would understand, even myself..

I could change all the time..

I'm strong in the outside, but I'm weak inside.

CHEER CELINE !

ENJOY LIFE !

working life

4 of January,

my very first time of working life.

I worked as a admin clerk & customer service assistant.

I'm feeling so lonely inside the office,

because only two people around in the office with me,

manager and marketing only..

My company it's still very new, that's why...

So quiet, as in no human voice other than songs.

I'm facing the computer for almost 10 hours per day.

Today was my third day of working,

temporary my job are searching thing to put on the forum for the company webpage,

clear some data, and playing game also my part of job too.

I'm serious..!

Today I get a new task, manager ask me think for the webpage description..

hhmmmm.. how?

2 hours more to leave the office, I'm so tired and sleepy...

I feel like lying my head down, but CCTV it's just behind me..

I wish that my manager will give me more thing to do, so I wouldn't feel so sleepy..

My manager told me that after the office renovated, most probably it will be more work and more event coming along..

On that time, I guess wouldn't for time sitting there to play facebook and blogging like what I do now.

Can I fall in love?

I'm afraid for getting hurt.

I don't dare to move forward..

I feel insecure...

That's all for today, have to continue my work..

The end of year 2011

This year, I have been gone through so many ups and downs..

The combination of hurt that been given from a few previous boyfriend,

Because of them, I learnt how to protect myself strongly.

I have been putting a lot of effort on my studies.

Making myself busy, going tuition for almost everyday.

These was what I had done to forget them...

Although it was super tiring, I must rush from here to there..

After all, my effort it's all worth it..

I saw all my improvement..

From the grade D or E, then improve to the grade of B or A..

I fell down in the love life, but I have been growth up from the part of thinking..

As people get older, they tend to be more receptive of changes and I'm one of them.

No regrets for all the effort that I had gave in.

Basically, this whole year is just all about studies.

Love begins with a smile, but always end with tears drop.

Sometimes I just like to recall back all the love memories,

Reading back the love diary, massage or looking on the pictures of us..

At least they left some happy memories for me..

I will wait for the right person and also the right moment to getting into a relationship..

I was actually lose courage to love another person..

Let's say goodbye to the year of 2011 !

New year, new life, new job, and new attitude of me will begins in the year of 2012.

Left all the sadness, stressful life and hardship aside, be strong and move forward to another the new year..

Every pleasant experience will eventually come to an end.

world, HAPPY NEW YEAR !

outing

Back to my normal life.. =D

Finally, I'm fully recover from sick..

Today I hang out with angie, cs and lx.

Another fun day with them.

We went for movie before going for haircut...

A very bored movie we had watched, "flying sword of dragon gate" !

Thank for the fella who ask us watched.. =D

Don't watch this movie unless you got a lot of money and do not know where to spend..

I went Eng Ann for haircut with angie while the 2 guy went to cc..

After everything done, We hang out at I-city and have our dinner..

Then go back to lx's house and talked.

Sometimes I just feel like our B&S relationship are getting farther.

I'm going to interview tomorrow, hopefully everything goes well..

Good Luck, Celine =D

That's all for tonight,

Good Night !

A lazy bump

I be a lazy bump for almost a week..

How can I behave like that?

How can I doing all lifeless things?

Celine "wake up, wake up", your headache and sickness had been cured.

So, please back to your normal life !

You even lazy to hang out with friends, lazy to go for interview and lazy to clean up your thing..

OH Gosh !

You seem like a ghost everyday stay inside the house like you are afraid with sunlight.

I gonna go out tomorrow !

No more staying at house to be a lazy bump.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a enjoyable day..

Pangkor trip

3 Days 2 Nights Pangkor trip with friends !

14th of december-16th of december

Extremely enjoyed the trip with 9 of them,

Hueh Ching, Yao Ying, Wen Shuang, Cherine, LiYing, Q-Yan, Kenny and Kok Ann..

On the third day, I fall sick..

Vomit, fever, cough, sore throat and running nose all came together.

I admited, I'm weak enough..

Other of them came back with joy and a healthy condition..

These two days, I spent most of time on the bed.

I slept for hours but I still felt tired and headache.

Not even one of them willing to bring me to clinic or buy me medicine.

I was moody and I cried just because nobody even care of me.

I do not know what I can do for the coming week.

I felt so lifeless and lazy to look for job..

After 1 Year

It almost one year I never updated.

Here's mostly is just all about my part of sadness life...

Guess what, these was the first post for year 2011 and it was the last month of 2011 too..

I do not know I should blog about what..?

Now I'm not use to it to express my feeling on blog, feel weird...!

In fact, here is the only place that I can express my feelings it out.

Just only 1 years, I feel I had been grown up.

I changed, my family changed, friends changed, and the only things that still remain since last year until now was I'm still alone.

these was the year that I shouldn't move forward to a relationship..

I almost started a relationship in the month of September,

I found that this guy was a different person with weird attitude,

I guess that was one of the reason I fall for him.

At last, we stopped everything immediately just because one particular girl.

I will just wish that he can get along with her.

Anyway, It's all about the past.

I had accepted the fact !

hmmm...

My family,

We getting closer and closer compare to last time..

Of course, we gone through a lot of ups and downs these actually made us become more closer to each other.

mum's problem, sister getting marry, money's problem and etc.

SPM?

exam was still going on...

good news was I only left 2 papers, economi and account.

After 7 of Dec, I will free from the cage, but it doesn't make much differeces..

I made a lot of effort on studies, and I had a big improvement !

It's worth it for changing my attitude towards study.

Now I'm just hoping that I can get flying colours for SPM !

conclusion,

In the year of 2011,

I learnt a lot, not only physically and but mentality.

I'm stronger and mature than before, not the small little girl and behave like a "mummy's girl".

All good things come to an end.

Next year,

I will be facing a lot of hardship,

no matter what, I have to be strong, not just for myself, also for my family and my future.

"Nothing ventured nothing gained"

happy x'mas

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This picture edited by Mr Cliff Wen jun.

I decided to post it on my blog because this is nice.

It's awesome, thank you very much !

' ' MERRY CHRISTMAS ' '

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' ' HAPPY NEW YEAR ' '

Please forgive me for lazy to update my blog. C=

Prevention is better than cure

Love is what?
LOVE IS NOTHING.
Love is just like a game.
When the game started, that's mean the sadness and fight are coming along.

Starting of love, It might be a happiest time, loving, sweet, caring, the closest people with each another and......

Ending of love, It might be make one of them be crazy, hurt, sad, suicide,become stranger and......



'they' refer to the people who hurt his/her . gf/bf
They are Cruel and stubborn.
They always make empty promises..
They promise but they never do it. !

They will never give you the second chances to change, even though you know where your mistake.
They always say they will come back to you, at the end they won't even find you.
That's the method which wanna let you wait him or he don't want you to keep find him.
Don't be stupid, don't die because of guys because It's not worth it !

"As you sow, so shall you reap"
Means someone will be given punishment according to their action, be it a sinful life.


I had tried twice before.
I was wanted to bargain for a long lasting relationship, but...
Unfortunately, I'm the one who give people hurt badly.
I thought they will be difference from the others.
The time I use my true heart to love them, sadness will comes.

I'm so unlucky because The course of true love never runs smoothly.
From now onwards, I'm scare to fall in love again.
Fall in love will always get hurt at the end.




爱可以让一个人爱到疯！